You dug this hole

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 03:26:54 GMT

On account of my over-analytical mind and my ability to isolate myself to endure myself with such thinking activities, I've come to the conclusion that I have been robbing myself for the past few years of having any real female friends. I mean, sure there are those few select girls that I have let my guard down with, but I have never let myself become open enough to have a solid friendship with the exception of Kristen. I watch many girls around me giiggling and having mindless chit-chat while I usually observe, never really making any attempt to join. I conserve my thoughts and although may claim to have a distaste for my own gender, the distaste in all it's perceptibility is jealousy. I know so many beautiful, talented, and charismatic young ladies and instead of filling my life with the joy of their presence, I erase any oppurtunity to a real friendship because of my own insecurities. I regret my bad judgment greatly. With this thought in mind, if you were or are a fellow girl hater, think of why you have hatred for the girls you hate. Chances are there is something they have that you don't and your bantering is the reflection of such jealousy. Atleast that is the realization I have come to. As far as the girls I had a distaste for due to numerous reasons, I don't hold any form of hatred. I have remorse for them. Hopefully one day they will be graced with good decision making skills and self respect.

I hope to come oh so close to the existing female friends I have and open myself up the beautiful ones that stroll into my life; appreciate and accept the array of characteristics this giant of a world has to offer.

Extinct This!

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 23:39:05 GMT

After over 2 years of falling apart and 1 week of fustration and isolation from the cellular world, the prehistoric mobile device is officially extinct.

I have a new phone.

This is the best christmas present ever, I've been wanting this for so long

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 07:26:29 GMT

and by "this", I mean they are friends again. Tonight was just like it was a year ago.

MERRY CHRISTMAS... OR HAPPY HANNAKAH... OR KWANZA

whatever you celebrate, enjoy yourself

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTEN!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 01:32:06 GMT

Does anyone want a dwarf hamster. My hamster is uncontrollably breeding and it's pretty intense. I have 8 hamsters living in one cage right now. They are pretty cute too. Like... really cute. I'd say cute as fuck.

ok.

Mood weird is a balloon. I chose this without knowing... coinsidence?

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 05:32:53 GMT

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY PHIL!!!!!

1 more year of being a teen.

You've been nothing but a great friend to me. Thank you for understanding and always being there for me.

I hope all of your birthday wishes come true. :)

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 22:27:34 GMT

Driving in the car at night when everything is over and winding down, feeling infinite, I realize what a big blur life really is.

This was the best weekend of my life.

Practicing my dance moves...

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 04:55:04 GMT

I lost Zeus... What I have failed to realized is that it is called a hopper for a reason and i should of invested in putting my Big Nasty in the mouse Olympics. I took a shower and when i returned to my room...NO ZEUS!!! I'm so worried about him. I don't want anything to happen to him. I'm scared months from now I'm going to be cleaning and find his little body. CCCCCOOOOMMMMEEE BAAACCCKKK!!!! damnit damnit damnit WHY!!!!!!!!

Fri, 07 May 2004 02:27:15 GMT

http://img47.photobucket.com/albums/v145/kristensawesome/AWWWSUM%20disney%20trip/100_0551.jpg best friends for life